nearing the end

i’m on week 35. i sound like a broken record, but it’s unreal how quickly this pregnancy has gone by. i recall being excited, nervous, and scared for penny’s arrival but i have a few more emotions to add to this one: sadness and guilt. i know, i know, i talked about guilt in my last post but this one is a bit different. for the past 22 months, penny has been the light in our lives; our shining star; the center of our universe… and in five short weeks, a tiny little being will steal some of her spotlight.

of course, we will try our best to make sure penny will get as much love and attention as possible – with much help from her paternal grandparents – but there will be plenty of times where mommy can’t cater to penny’s needs because she has to nurse or comfort a newborn. i really wonder how she will react to me holding a baby all the time especially in the early stages. she already is so helpful with cleaning and retrieving items so i’m hoping she will want to help take care of her baby brother.

it has been nearly a month since penny has been incredibly clingy, and she only wants me to do certain tasks such as bring her up for her bath. bathtime used to be daddy’s thing, but these days instead of running into his arms she’ll ask me to take her upstairs instead. once she’s in the bathtub, she’s fine with daddy (or grandma) giving her a bath but she will want to be carried upstairs by me. another thing that penny only wants me to do is read her books. if anyone else tries to read her a book, she stops them and has me do it instead. it’s a bit endearing honestly but very tiring too particularly if she only wants to be held by me.

we went up to boston the first weekend of march, and one of the activities we did was go to the museum of science. while there, she only wanted to be held by me. she didn’t even want to walk! you can imagine how exhausting that was especially with my belly in the way! if i tried to put her down to walk with her, she would curl her legs right back up. of course, she had been sick that week and was finally returning to her old self so she could’ve been seeking comfort. plus, her nap was about an hour so i know she was tired. i get frustrated and annoyed at times because i’m so tired, but i keep reminding myself that these are the last precious few weeks of holding and taking care of just one child. my first child. so, i try to take it in stride because i know i’ll miss these moments where i can just hug her at any time without having to tell her that i can’t embrace her right now because i’m holding her brother.

this is why i try to keep our days busy with activities; even when all i want to do is be lazy and put in minimal effort. i know it’s not fair to penny if i “check out” now more so since these are my last few weeks with just her. plus, i like seeing her engaged and happy. no matter how many toys you have, you’ll get sick of them so i’m always bringing her to places and thinking of activities we can do. and lastly, when the baby comes i’ll need time to recover… but then i won’t have time for anything but taking care of the baby. i know i’m going to yearn for the days where i can just get up and take penny somewhere even if it’s last-minute.

here are some memories we’ve made during the past two weeks.

we love to visit libraries, and one that we visited was south windsor public library in my husband’s hometown. after checking out the children’s area and befriending another toddler named jasmine, penny wanted to explore the rest of the library.


her love for cars and trucks continues…



when we walked by the children’s room, i knew she would love the chair



there were some really good illustrations on here…


two weekends, we made our final trip up to boston as a family before ezra’s arrival. our main purpose was to see my parents but also my grandma.. but unfortunately we weren’t able to visit my grandma because she had contracted MRSA.


enjoying 미역국, seaweed soup, with grandma


we visited the museum of science on saturday afternoon.

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at the chocolate exhibit


she wanted a selfie with this giant acorn cushion


playing at the gift shop


mess-free sand


trying dippin’ dots for the first time


naptime while penny naps


dinner with ben before watching hacksaw ridge


cute pose by yuri

we went to vinkari safari in woburn again. all she wanted to do was ride the vehicles 🙂 it would’ve been fine if she stayed in a certain car for a period of time but we would push her for less than a minute and she would want to switch to a different car.


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we were craving 팥빙수, korean shaved ice so we stopped by cafe benne before heading back home. the dessert next to the strawberry/ sweet red bean shaved ice is a s’mores toast!

penny had been sick the week leading up to our boston trip. since she was still getting over her cough, we went up on saturday morning instead of friday. it was a short(er) trip but we still enjoyed seeing my parents, eating good korean food, and continuing our tradition of a “movie night” with ben (alf couldn’t make it because of a work project).

a library that we absolutely love, and go to twice a week, is booth & dimock library in coventry. on tuesdays from 10:15-11:15, they have a free program called tiny tots, which includes free play with toys and a group reading activity as well as singing along to songs.

on wednesdays they have free play from 10:30-11:30.

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in a great mood on the way to the car

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she’s touching a plant that had a soft bulb on it

a chick-fil-a restaurant recently opened in west hartford. since it has an indoor play area, a few of my mommy friends and i decided to have a playdate there. although the sign said for ages 3 and under, we all agreed that it was more suitable for ages 3 and older. penny and i climbed up the structure but she was too nervous to enter the tubes to go down the slide. there also wasn’t really much for the kids to do there either so i wouldn’t recommend a play date there… but lunch was really good! penny didn’t want her chicken nuggets but she ate the fruit cup, waffle fries, and drank the juice.

i only found out after i had come home that chick-fil-a offers books as an alternative to a toy for ages 3 and under! i wish i had known because the paper toy she received was too advanced for her so i trashed it.

penny was so tired she actually fell asleep on the drive home! she hasn’t fallen asleep in the car since her infant days because we time our outings so that she’s home for her nap and bedtime routine. i was worried she wouldn’t fall asleep for her nap but she did.. and then i had to wake her up because it was getting late.

penny’s library books were due last thursday so we went to tolland library. the entire library was renovated recently and the children’s area is a spread out instead of being in an enclosed room. i actually liked the room because it prevented penny from wandering around but this was nice too.



taking a break to snack on strawberries


she’s great at stacking cups


i bought these sensory beads from amazon. you soak them in the water for 6-10 hours (too long and they crumble/fall apart), drain the water, and let the kids play!

they feel like tapioca balls found in bubble tea. it’s amazing how fast they swell up!



she was laughing because she threw the balls down the spiral chute


remember the gno out from my last post? 10 ladies made it out and we had a wonderful time!! can’t wait to do it again soon. thanks to the baby daddies for taking care of the babies while the moms destressed!

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those busy toddler days

miss penny is 20 months old now – closer and closer to becoming a 2-year-old. every day, penny goes back and forth from being a fiercely independent toddler to a clingy one. most of the time she will want to do things on her own — placing different shapes in the correct cutouts, putting animals in a truck, etc. — and even knock our hands out of the way if we try to help. and then, out of nowhere, she will climb onto my lap or ask to be picked up. she’s been like a baby sloth lately – i’ll try to put her down and she’ll curl her legs right back up.


i actually don’t mind the extra comfort that penny is seeking nowadays because i know i won’t be able to cuddle her as much when ezra arrives, but it’s getting more difficult to pick her up and carry her around as my belly continually expands. i wonder if it’s a phase she is going through or if she senses her baby brother – i’m thinking both. she doesn’t ask anyone else – not even her dad – to pick her up and hold her like she does to me. when dennis works the day shift, he does bath time. all he has to say is “bath time” or “bubbles” and penny will run into his arms. lately, she’s been twisting in his arms and extending her arms to me so i’ve been bringing her upstairs to give her a bath. even yesterday when grandma so tried to bring her upstairs, penny insisted i do it instead.

within the past month, penny has also had 6 teeth come in! she had 4 for the longest time and now she has all of her first molars (top and bottom) and two of the lateral incisors (one on top and one on bottom). they never really affected her sleep (lucky us) but probably had an effect on her daytime mood and eating habits.


penny has been at the late end of the tooth eruption stage for all her teeth thus far

now we are just waiting for her canines, the rest of her lateral incisors, and later on, her second molars.

penny definitely acts clingy when i’m around; she doesn’t really look for me if i’m not there. last wednesday, grace and i went to new jersey for the day. i was a little worried that penny would look for me and get upset that i wasn’t there, but she was fine. dennis woke up in the morning to take care of her since i had to leave around 8am to get to grace’s house so we could carpool. dennis even made me an egg, cheese, and sausage breakfast sandwich to eat on the road! his mom came a few hours later to take over and penny was great, as usual, for the rest of the day as well.


avocado toast at kuppi cafe


i’d been to this cafe once before but i had no idea the owner and i had mutual friends. we ended up getting our orders on the house!


lunch at mitsuwa


nuna pipa car seat


dream shade



gam mi-ok before heading home

grace and i had a wonderful time in jersey. it felt so odd to be away from home for an entire day. i’m trying to think of the last time i did that and i really can’t remember. sure, i’ve been gone a few hours here and there recently but not a whole day. i just thought about penny the entire time (of course) and how much i missed her.

when we went shopping at garden state plaza mall, i vowed i’d buy something for myself because i rarely do these days. i ended up buying a lot of clothes from zara for penny (all on sale), a few items for dennis and jeggings for myself from uniqlo. grace and i also tried out strollers and car seats at nordstrom – uppababy vista for her and the nuna pipa car seat for me. i’ve been looking to replace the mesa car seat with a nuna pipa so i was glad i was able to try it out in person. the feature that i like the best is the dream drape – the extra sun shade extends to the baby’s feet. it also weighs about 7.7 lb: one of the lightest car seats out there. i’m still stuck on the color – the classic black is always nice especially since the infant insert is a cream color, but i am also partial to indigo.

my friend, grace, also had her mickey mouse-themed baby shower on the 15th. i made a banner for the shower and i’m really pleased with how it turned out. i made the mickey mouse cutouts and the letters without using any templates. the korean characters proved to be the hardest because i wanted the font to look authentic and the size had to fit inside the bunting.


since the shower was at 3:30pm, i was able to bring penny. i’m glad i brought her so i can get her accustomed to attending more social gatherings since she tends to be shy; but also in a few months i’ll have to learn how to tote two (!) around so i should take advantage of only having to do one for now. it still did prove to be difficult because she wanted to be held for the first half hour (my arms were killing me) but she did eventually warm up and walked around and played with the other children.


penny & ethan


with the mommy-to-be



i thought it was an actual cake


i wish i had brought food from home though because she couldn’t really eat any of the food provided. she snacked on sun chips, a few crackers, pineapple and strawberries; refused cheese and, not surprisingly, the olives and roasted veggies. i thought she would, at least, eat a few bites of the creamy pasta but she didn’t. she wanted the salad – she likes lettuce even though it’s hard for her to eat it – but ended up munching on the raw onions! she also ended up eating a cupcake sans frosting and drinking juice from a juice box for the first time ever. when we got home, i made sure to feed her a little bit more before starting the bedtime routine.


a highlight was that i won one of the games – something that i’ve never done at a baby or bridal shower, i believe. i got a starbucks gift card with a “year of the rooster” illustration on it – yay!

recently, a few mommy friends and i met up for a group play date. we were excited to visit imagine nation, a children’s museum in bristol, for the first time. i was wary of the distance though (a 40-minute drive) since the museum opens at 9:30am and penny and i would need to leave around 11am to come back home in time for lunch.

penny actually ended up doing really well on the car ride (credit goes to the forward-facing seat) so that wasn’t an issue. we all discovered when we arrived there that the museum is closed on mondays and tuesdays! one of the mommies suggested we go to the public library a half mile down the road and we all hoped they would have a decent children’s section. they do! in fact, they have one of the best children’s rooms in a library that i’ve ever seen: spacious, filled with toys and tablet stations (!), and a sensory board on a wall. it ended up working out because penny and i had gotten to the museum around 10 so we would’ve only had about an hour to play. (admission is $10/person.)



penny enjoying strawberries while parker munches on veggie sticks



penny and serina checking out the sensory board

dennis and i ended up bringing penny to imagine nation later on in the week. the exhibits are spread out and capacious but we felt that the museum geared towards older kids – at least, 4~5 years old and up. penny is still young enough where she wasn’t engrossed in many of the exhibits like the wellness center where you can pretend to be a dentist. personally, i liked the giant bubble and the art room. penny did paint for a short while in the art studio but even the tables and stools were made for older children. she liked the interactive floor, glow sticks (they have these at other kids’ museums), and the musical instruments the best. i was debating whether we should have penny’s birthday at kid city or imagine nation but we decided on kid city after our visit to imagine nation that day.


air blowing up a balloon



pushing the table so the marker can make lines



interactive floor



she liked the magnatiles and especially the color-changing table




she likes playing with different musical instruments at home so she enjoyed herself



squashing aliens


not a fan of the sportscenter broadcasting station


the water was too cold for her liking


giant bubble maker



check out the snake skin



she just wanted to play with the markers



painting buddies


i made snowflakes as the duo painted


it’s fascinating to see penny develop an interest in toys that she had not cared for in past months. now that she’s older, she likes to play with the pegs and peg board that i had gotten for her back when she was 16 months. when i had first introduced them to her, she only liked the place the pegs upside down and put them in cups. now she actually puts them on the board and also stacks them on top of each other.

one of our neighbors works for lego and she gave penny a minnie mouse duplo set this past summer. all penny liked to do was dump out the pieces and methodically put each one back in the box. she would point at the airplane and say “bi” (short for “bihenggi”, airplane in korean) but was still too young then to really build with them. our friends, katie and mike, gave penny a farm duplo set as a baptism gift and she plays with it all the time! she particularly likes the people that came with the set – calling the boy “dad” and the girl “grandma.”

penny still loves cars and trucks, and she has a bunch of them. we don’t really get her cars that are pink and “girly”  because we don’t want to pigeonhole her into the category where girls only like/have things that are pink and purple. penny has a good amount of pink clothes but so much more are gray and navy. personally, i like those colors better because they match with other items of clothing.

as a former teacher, i figure it’s never too early to introduce the alphabet. we read books about letters and numbers, but i also wanted penny to be able to play with magnet letters. after much research, i settled on a jug of roscoe learning magnetic letters. i wanted large, foam letters and these have magnets on the entire backside. plus, they have multiple letters for each one so you can actually spells words and make sentences. the softer colors were also appealing to me. i’m not sure if this company makes numbers but i hope they do.

we are continually encouraging penny to be aware of her body and her bowel movements. she has been telling us “응가” (eung-gah, kind of like a grunt in korean when kids poop) when she has to poop but will refuse to sit on the potty. the past few days we’ve caught her mid-poop so took off her diaper/pull-up and sat her on the potty. she resisted but i sang a song and the last bit made it into the potty. when dennis took care of penny in the morning yesterday he was able to have her go in the potty as well. it takes a lot of praise, patience, and encouragement.

hurray to finally updating another blog post. i started this last night but was able to finish it this morning because grandma so is over this morning to help out with penny. *thankful*

penny’s selfies

penny having fun with daddy’s 27-year-old cray pas crayons from korea!

birthdays & bachelor(ettes)


she loves crawling into the ball pit

welcome to april! although in new england, not much has changed. actually, the weather has taken a turn for the worse. we were teased with a few days hovering near the high-60s last week. then it rained on saturday which turned to snow on sunday and finally ceased yesterday. i look forward to taking walks with penny and yuri to get fresh air and break up the monotony of being indoors, but it looks like we won’t be able to do that this week.

it was a nonstop weekend: since dennis was away for a bachelor weekend in colorado from wednesday through saturday, i was mostly alone with penny and yuri during that time. my mil doesn’t work on wednesdays so she kept me company that day and my fil stopped by on thursday and friday to take yuri outside. my friend, katie, came around penny’s dinnertime to spend the night and helped me feed her dinner. we also went out for a walk which was nice for everyone. 🙂 after penny went to bed, we chowed down on pizza, wings, and fried mozzarella while drinking wine and watching gilmore girls. katie’s boyfriend was also in colorado with dennis and the gang so it was great to keep each other company and also have girl talk 😉



penny really likes katie’s blond hair


saturday was olivia’s big day: it was her first birthday party!

traditionally at a korean first birthday, there is a 돌잡이 (doljabi), where an assortment of objects is laid out in front of the baby. the child then chooses one object and this determines their future occupation. usual objects include money (wealth), spool of thread (long life), stethoscope (medical), pencil or book (scholar), and so on.

olivia chose money (genie said she trained her to!) but chose a spool of thread later so maybe that was the “actual” prediction… 😛


proud parents with the birthday girl


look who’s one!


돌상, or the dol table


closer look at the tissue paper flowers that genie made!


after the party, i rushed home to pump and my sister played with penny. my in-laws were already there because my fil took care of penny while i went to the party and then my mil came over after work. and then, we drove up to boston to attend our friend, yuge’s night out in town for her bachelorette.  unfortunately i didn’t take many pictures (photos below are from the bride and matron of honor)… but we did share pictures that we had with yuge over the years and relived memories.

post-dinner, we went back to the hotel where i pumped (what else?) while we chatted, and the girls put on face masks and watched how to lose a guy in 10 days. by then it was nearly midnight and it had been a long weekend already so i went to my parents’ house to sleep.


we used traci’s selfie stick before heading out to dinner



dinner at gaslight


i love bone marrow!


moules et frites!


wore same outfit to olivia’s birthday and the bachelorette hangout

and, sleep i did! besides waking up once in the morning to – you guessed it – pump, i fell back asleep until 11:30am! i don’t think i have slept in that late for a few years, at least! even before penny was born, i was usually awake and functioning before that time. it was a good thing i woke up then too because i had to help get the house ready for my grandma’s 95th birthday luncheon!



my parents recently “downsized” and the formal living room is my favorite room.


jen’s dog, charlie



it was a jam-packed weekend and i enjoyed catching up with friends and family, but in the end… home is the best (집이 최고 지). dennis had returned from colorado late saturday night so he took care of penny all day sunday. i came home with a ton of food and was finally able to relax.

penny’s birthday party is 5 weeks away and we are scrambling to have everything ready in time. grateful to have a lot of help from my sister, genie, and dennis. i’m nearly finished with one of the dol tower, but i still have two left: one for her korean name and one for the sheep (her zodiac). after i finish those, i’ll be sure to blog a post about that.. and i’m still overdue to do one on penny’s now-finished kitchen! it turned out great~ dennis just put in batteries for the stove this morning so the burners light up when the buttons are pushed.

penny had a great stretch where she was sleeping 11-12 hours at night and would wake up between 6:30-7am.. the past few days she’s been waking up at 5:30-5:45am.. ahhh, so i have to push her naps earlier. i read at this age babies go through so much developmentally since they’re full-on crawling, standing, and trying to walk. plus, her awake time has increased while her nap lengths have decreased so it’s kind of hard to stretch out the day so she isn’t going to bed around 6pm. we are still having to wake her up, at least once, from her naps so it doesn’t affect her other nap and/or nighttime sleep. i know eventually her nap total will be anywhere from 2~2.5 hours as she gets closer to her 1-year mark, and this’ll mean an early bedtime for a while. so many changes during the baby’s first year!

it looks as if i’ll have to wake penny from her first nap so i need to quickly wash up and get ready before doing so. next post will be about the kitchen!

happy new year!

2 0 1 6.

a whole new year with penny. she’s growing up so, so quickly. her first birthday is in 4 months!

what?!? :O

the overzealous mom that i am, i started a pinterest board for her birthday when she was 3 months old adding ideas here and there… but now i really have to get the ball rolling. dennis and i settled on a theme – secret for now – and i need to start making decorations and deciding how i want to set everything up. my parents recently moved and generously offered us their home as the location. since the party will be held in boston it will be more convenient for my family and friends that live in mass to attend especially my 94-year-old grandmother who hasn’t been able to see penny in several months.

i’m hoping to work on the birthday projects little by little to ease the stress factor. *fingers crossed*



korean tradition to eat ddeok-guk (떡국), or rice cake soup, for the new year


she loves piggyback rides



playing with her lion rattle

penny is continuing to sleep wonderfully on her own. she started leap #6 a few days ago so her naps have been back and forth from being short to long but she’s still doing great. (i.e no rocking and no going in to pop the pacifier back in her mouth.) sometimes she’ll play with the pacifier and fall asleep with it at her side.

the only thing that slightly worries us is her moving around in her crib. she isn’t crawling yet but she scoots on her back and often times spins 180 degrees so all we see is the back of her head on the baby monitor. she’s still in her merlin sleep suit which adds a little bit of weight so penny rolls onto her side and scoots around. she’ll kick the crib rails and play with the mesh bumpers then, eventually, fall asleep. i don’t know why but she also likes to sleep facing the crib’s sides. i’m not sure if it’s because she feels snug but i get worried that she’ll wake herself up because her head and feet are touching the rails. sometimes she does but she usually falls back asleep, thankfully.


this is usually how she falls asleep nowadays


how i found her after her nap


look at her legs! she’s not sleeping here.. she fell asleep shortly afterwards

one of my next posts will be about homemade baby food and penny’s feeding schedule. she loves to eat solids now after having a rocky start. penny also can’t get enough of water. we limit her daily intake to 3 oz. and only during mealtimes to wash the food down, but she gets so excited when she sees her sippy cup! she picks up the cup and puts the spout in her mouth but can only drink it if it’s nearly full as she doesn’t yet know to tilt her head back to get the water to flow.


practicing feeding herself yogurt





this sippy cup was $10 but totally worth it


good eats, good sleep. these two things have contributed in my feeling much more energized and happy these days. what a great way to start off the new year!



summer daze

with school in session and it being the second week of september, you may think fall is just around the corner. as the official first day of fall is september 23rd, you would be correct. but this month has still been summer strong. new england has been having record heat the past few days. i didn’t dare take penny and yuri for a walk today, but the mail carrier came to the front door with a certified letter and i was able to feel the sweltering and suffocating humidity from just standing in the doorway. it’s so bad a bunch of towns and cities issued an early dismissal for their schools today, and some have already announced early release for tomorrow. the city that i am employed in has 8 elementary schools but only 2 are air-conditioned so all elementary schools ended the day at 1pm and the middle school ended at noon. the high school has ac so they had a regular day – bummer for them.

currently, it’s 3:56pm and penny is taking her last nap of the day. she’s been sleeping for just about an hour now. penny’s bedtime is around 7pm and last night she woke up after only a half hour! she must have still been hungry because i nursed her to sleep while she was still wearing her magic merlin suit. she ended up sleeping from 8pm-6am!!! her longest stretch ever!!! i have been setting my alarm to wake up to pump but i kept putting it off from 2am on because i kept thinking penny would wake up and i wanted to nurse instead of bottle-feeding her. well, when she ended up waking up at 6am i was engorged 😦 i just recently started getting my supply back so it wasn’t a smart move neglecting to pump. my issue with bottle-feeding at night is that she’s more awake because i have to pause to burp her and make sure i’m pace feeding. with the boob, it’s more likely she’ll fall asleep and i can gently place her in the crib without having to spend extra time putting her to sleep.

dennis is back at work today after having had a 4-day weekend! on friday, we drove up to massachusetts to visit my family and grandma. we stopped in boston first so dennis could get a haircut and then we had lunch at my parents’ restaurant. we had to interrupt penny’s nap to make it to dennis’ hair appointment in time and penny was overtired. she actually ended up falling asleep while bottle-feeding but woke right up when dennis tried putting her in the stroller. my mom took her for a walk while dennis, my sister, and i ate and penny ended up falling asleep again.


yummy!! i got 짜장밥, or jajangbab. it’s fried rice with a sweet black bean sauce on the side.


after lunch, we drove another 45 minutes to see my grandma and aunt. my dad was also there so we were able to see him as well. my grandma wasn’t able to make it to penny’s 100th day celebration and i really wanted her to see penny.

this picture was taken just before she started crying

this picture was taken just before she started crying

penny’s not comfortable with unfamiliar faces so she gets upset when anyone other than dennis and i hold her. she used to be great with dennis’ mom, my mom, and sister but she doesn’t see them on a daily basis… and she has her preferences.

sadly, we didn’t stay too long because we wanted to stop by my parents’ house and also had a 2-hour drive home ahead of us. what should’ve been a 45-minute drive from boston to my grandma’s house took nearly 2 hours because of labor day weekend traffic! we had to pull over and change penny’s diaper and outfit too because she had had a blowout -_-

my parents recently purchased a new home and my dad really wanted to show it to us. my parents have been wanting to downsize for years but couldn’t find a condo that they liked in boston. after a year of living in an apartment, they decided to purchase a 5-bedroom house 25 minutes from boston. my dad’s reasoning: condos in boston are around the same price.. so might as well purchase a house. right… not sure how that’s downsizing, but they seem pretty happy.

here's dennis feeding penny in my parents' family room

here’s dennis feeding penny in my parents’ family room

snoozing on the way home

snoozing on the way home

on saturday, i drove up to massachusetts solo to attend my friend, esther’s baby shower. although i had said i was attending i kept having second thoughts because i was nervous about being away from penny for so long. plus, with the supply issue i had to make sure i pumped during the middle of the shower. anyway, i ended up going and had a great time. penny also slept for the majority of the time i was gone so that was easy for dennis! he ended up cleaning the entire house: vacuuming, laundry, dishes, and organizing every room. he was vacuuming the couch cushions when i came home! (penny was up by then.)

one thing i never really thought about until i had penny was being able to find a place to pump. the baby shower was held in a restaurant and when i went inside the bathroom to pump, i saw that the only outlet was near the sink. a server very graciously stood guard by the bathroom door while i pumped. oh, the joys of being a mama!

we relaxed the rest of the weekend by staying at home. we tried going to church on sunday but penny ended up taking a 3 hour nap. our friend, john, came over after church to visit instead. he arrived right when penny woke up from her nap; that’s when she’s the happiest so when john bent over the crib to see her, she was smiling. (otherwise, she probably would’ve cried.)


penny’s first time on a swing – she was falling asleep!


yesterday, we tried hanging out on the field behind our house but that lasted, maybe, 15 minutes. penny was fussy so i brought her inside to feed her because she seemed distracted outside. well, it turns out she was super sleepy from not sleeping well the night before. she ended up napping for 4.5 hours! i had to go wake her because it was interfering with her feeds and i didn’t want the long nap to keep her up at night.


it would’ve been nice to be able to chill outdoors 😦

any time there is a sweltering heat wave or an icy snow storm, people are quick to complain about the weather on social media: “i can’t wait for summer/winter to be over.” having lived in new england all of my life, i truly appreciate having four seasons. not only does it break the monotony of having the same kind of weather over and over again but it makes me appreciate each season that much more. still, spring and fall are relatively short in comparison to summer and winter. out of the four, people seem to complain about fall less, if at all. it’s easy to see why with the cool, crisp weather; gorgeous foliage; fall activities; and comfort food to name a few.

though i haven’t been able to “enjoy” summer this year in terms of activities and events, it still was my first full season with penny. many days i would stare wistfully out the window wishing i could make an impromptu trip to the beach or pool or meet my girlfriends for happy hour. as penny gets older i’ll be able to do all these things once again but this will be the only summer where i was able to see penny at one month, two months, and three months old… and that is worth everything.

just before daddy started dancing with penny

just before daddy started dancing with penny

bath time

bath time

i see you!

i see you!


penny’s 100th day (백일)

baek-il, or 100 days, is one of several korean birthday celebrations. in the olden days, infant mortality in korea was high so if a baby reached 100 days of life there was a small celebration to give thanks for the baby’s, and mother’s, health thus far. prayers were also said for the baby’s longevity, wealth, and luck.

today, the baek-il is celebrated more for fun: it’s an excuse to have a party, and to take pictures of the event to share with everyone. as the baek-il is not as a significant milestone as the dol, first birthday, we kept the party intimate by only inviting immediate family members and relatives. since baek-il is not a big deal and everyone else lives in either eastern massachusetts or new hampshire, less than half attended.. we ended up having too much food but better to have too much (and leftovers!) than too little. the food was catered from a local korean restaurant -thanks to my in-laws – and the mini rice cakes and actual rice cake were made by a church elder.


obviously there is very little downtime with a baby. whenever penny napped, i would work on the decorations. i made the bunting – ‘happy 100th day’ – during one of penny’s 3-hour naps. i used leftover 8.5 x 11 in. brown card stock for the background and a small packet of 6×8 in. scrapbook paper that i purchased from michaels.

for the sign, i used a ruler and pencil to measure and mark the halfway point on the bottom of the card stock. next, i placed the ruler vertically from the middle point to mark 4 inches above the point. then, i used the ruler again to help draw straight lines from the new mark to the bottom corners of the paper (to make a triangle). finally, i cut out the triangle to make a sign. i used the first one as a tracer to make more signs.

for the letters, i just sketched out block letters on paper without stencils. i did make sure that each letter was similar in width and height to make them uniform. in addition, i made sure to sketch the letters on the other side of the paper so if i made a mistake and wanted to erase, the markings wouldn’t show on the side that would be displayed. that meant, for some letters, i had to sketch a few letters backwards.

i also made a mini bunting for the cake using scrapbook paper, bakery string, and paper straws. i drew a triangle and cut it out, and then i used the original as a tracer for all the other ones. next, i taped the triangles to bakery thread. then, i used a gold sharpie to write the letters. finally, i tied the bakery string to the paper straws.


the korean characters are pronounced “chook baek-il” which is an abbreviated form of “congratulations on the 100th day”

small rice cakes, reese's peanut butter cake with the bunting, and the traditional rice cake for the baek-il

small rice cakes, reese’s peanut butter cake with the bunting, and the traditional rice cake for the baek-il

for the streamer background, i found a cool how-to on pinterest. all you need is masking tape and streamers.  you tape up the masking tape – sticky side out – in a straight line. then you hang up strips of streamers by sticking each one onto the tape. i made sure to tape each streamer at a different point on the tape strip so the streamers would overlap. i only used three colors: hot pink, light pink, and white. my sister and her boyfriend came the night before to help me set up the streamers, arrange the flowers, make paper flowers, and clean and organize the house.


some of our family members. my sister is on the bottom holding the dog and my brother is the one awkwardly standing away from everyone else, lol


another look at the decor and food

for the paper fans, some were decorations from my baby showers that i had saved and some were made by me for the baek-il. these proved difficult to hang up because of the ridges. i used a lot of masking tape. for the heavier ones, i either used a clear hook to hang them or taped twine on the back and hung them up that way.

“penny gallery”

we developed images from penny’s newborn photo shoot and had them framed to hang up around the home. we also had wrapped canvases made as well. the paper garland is from etsy and was a decoration from one of my baby showers.

beverage area

beverage area

for drinks, we offered water, 3 different kinds of flavored san pellegrino, and soda.


homemade strawberry and pistachio macarons by rebecca


macarons for penny!

my friend, rebecca, made macarons for the event and stopped by to personally drop them off. they were a huge hit and were gobbled up by everyone! she also made a separate batch for dennis and me as well as a box of 6 for penny. such a kind gesture ~

pano view

pano view

i attempted a panoramic view of the event. my dog and one of my cousins were moving so they came out distorted. we held the celebration in our finished basement. for now, the basement holds our ping pong table and a few of penny’s play things but soon it will become penny’s playroom.

if you look at the beverage table, you’ll notice a baby monitor next to the coke bottle. penny napped for nearly the entire event! she had slept poorly the night before and was exhausted. good thing we took pictures with her before she napped.


penny with my mom and dad

penny with dennis' mom and dad

penny with dennis’ mom and dad

fil wanted one with yuri :)

fil wanted one with yuri 🙂

dennis and brendan

dennis and brendan

jen and brendan

jen and brendan

my cousins: sarah, mason, and sarah (mason's mom)

my cousins: sarah, mason, and sarah (mason’s mom). yuri was also begging for food.

william and mason

william and mason

my grandma couldn't make the event and sent over a bag of rice and thread for penny. she's afraid she won't live to see penny's first birthday :(

my grandma couldn’t make the event and sent over a bag of rice and thread for penny to sit on and wear (normally saved for the first birthday). she’s afraid she won’t live to see penny’s first birthday 😦

for the dol, or first birthday, an array of objects is displayed for the baby to choose. whatever the baby selects is supposed to predict the baby’s future occupation. some things that are laid out are rice, thread, pencil, and a book. nowadays, people also add things like a stethoscope and microphone among others to diversity the job field, haha.

my grandma told us to have penny sit on the bag of rice with the loops of thread around her neck. i had never heard of this, but i’m guessing that grandma wishes wealth (rice) and long life (thread) upon penny. here’s to that!

cute magnets from shutterfly

cute magnets from shutterfly

essentials to survive the first two months

i have been working on this post for five days now. there isn’t much downtime with a baby and i suffered from another bout of mastitis (!) but more on that later…

penny had her two-month doctor appointment on monday. it was a moment that i had been dreading because of the vaccines – 3 shots and one oral. as a member of three facebook groups geared towards parents, i learned that side effects from the vaccines can include a fever, soreness, fussiness, and sleepiness. (dennis confirmed.) many moms also recommended nursing right away to help soothe the baby.

at the appointment, we found out that penny has been growing beautifully. she now weighs 12 lb. 6 oz. and is 23.5 inches long! her measurements are in the 90th percentile. that’s my girl! she was so happy too as she lay on the check-up table smiling and cooing…until we gave her the shots. poor thing was crying and screaming from the pain. nursing immediately really did calm her down. afterwards, she was lethargic and had a glazed-over look in her eyes. she cried on and off from the pain during the evening and after holding and rocking her she went to sleep. on tuesday, she was much more sleepy. at one stretch, she slept for 4 hours and didn’t nurse in almost 5 and a half hours!

in the meantime, i had been pumping because of mastitis. i woke up tuesday morning with a tenderness under my right breast and my heart sank. even after taking a hot shower, massaging, pumping, and applying heat the symptoms of mastitis arrived in full force: the flu-like symptoms (achiness, fever, and chills). we usually don’t have the ac on in the lower level of our home because it stays relatively cool. because of chills, i wore sweatpants and a hoodie and i was still huddled underneath a blanket.

luckily my sister came down from boston to help and even stayed two nights. two important things to do when you have mastitis is to stay hydrated and rest. drinking water is easy enough but definitely not the resting part. true, i have help but one person can’t put a baby down for a nap and try to cook dinner. i stepped in to nurse penny and put her down since it was nearing 7pm and we hadn’t had dinner yet. normally, penny wakes up around that time from her last nap to get ready for bed but the vaccines threw her ‘schedule’ off.

after taking ibuprofen to ease the pain, i ended up taking a percocet before bed because i was suffering full-force by that time. i woke up around 1am hearing penny’s cry and feeling infinitely better because i had sweated everything out though the tenderness remained. thankfully, my sister stepped in to do the late night feedings (penny only nursed 4 times the previous day) while i pumped and went back to bed. as the percocet wore off, the flu-like symptoms returned. before dennis left for work, he picked up thai food for us to eat at lunch and i had to force it down because i had no appetite; but i needed to eat to maintain energy.

penny is ten weeks now. at times, it feels much longer, and other times i can’t believe how fast time has gone by. the days can drag on especially when she’s going through a growth spurt and is cluster feeding and taking short naps. i want to share some things – 14 to be exact – that helped us get through the first few months, particularly the first two weeks which were the hardest.

1. apno lactation cream

“apno” stands for “all-purpose nipple ointment.” this was a HUGE lifesaver when i was struggling with breastfeeding during the first several weeks. we found out that penny had a slight tongue-tie which made latching more painful. in one of my earlier posts, i wrote about the pain and desperation i was feeling during the earlier days. this was like a miracle cream. it contains steroids among other ingredients to speed up the healing process. i noticed a drastic change the next day! after nursing, i applied the cream and wrapped saran wrap around the nipple area to lock in moisture. i was told to only do it for a week as steroids can cause thinning of the skin. this cream can only be obtained at a compound pharmacy with a prescription, of course. luckily, there is one down the street from us. for moms that suffer from sore and raw nipples, this could be the cream for you.

2. boppy lounger


penny was really gassy during the first month due to a tongue-tie (this was resolved at her first doctor visit) and the use of a nipple shield (which i still use). she’s been less gassy as of late but still spits up almost after every feeding so we try to keep her upright for, at least, 15 minutes. we found out that holding her over our shoulder to burp her was causing her to spit up more because of the pressure on her stomach. first, we place penny in a sitting position and pat her back to burp and then we put her over our shoulder to continually get the gas out of her body. this boppy lounger was helpful when penny was taking naps in the living room. (now that she’s older and more sensitive to noise and light, she sleeps upstairs in her crib.) we let her sleep on the lounger to keep her upright and to also have less pressure on the back of her head (no flat head for this girl!)

3. uppababy vista

this stroller comes with a bassinet, and it’s the bassinet that proved to be very useful. my mom stayed with us for a weekend during penny’s first week. since the “real” bassinet was in our room and the crib in the nursery, penny slept in the uppababy bassinet. (by the way, this bassinet was approved for overnight sleeping.) my mom woke up every few hours during the night to feed penny and would put her back to sleep in the bassinet. sometimes when we found it difficult to put her down for naps, we would take her out for a walk and she would get much needed shut-eye in the bassinet as well. these days, she doesn’t sleep in it for naps or overnight when we’re at home but we do bring it with us when we are visiting family and friends so she can nap in there.

4. swaddles

we love the aden and anais (pronounced an-eye-ees) swaddles (shown in the boppy lounger photo). these receiving blankets are made from muslin and are light and breathable which helps prevent overheating. many come in sets of 4 with various, pretty designs.

we were also fond of summer infant swaddles but penny has long outgrown them. they were easy because the baby’s legs and lower torso are tucked inside a pocket and two velcro flaps keep the arms in place. swaddles are key in helping infants go to sleep and stay asleep. newborns have a startle reflex called the moro reflex where their arms fly up. this can wake them up so tightly swaddled babies sleep better and longer.. plus, they feel safe and secure from being snug as they are used to cozy spaces from being in a womb for 9 months.


5. glider

if you’re hesitant about purchasing a glider for the nursery, don’t be; it really is a great investment. why a glider over a rocker? well, dennis and i felt that a glider looks better than a rocker as it doesn’t have the exposed rails on the bottom. plus, it’s a bit safer for when penny starts crawling so her hands don’t get caught underneath.

i spent many a night actually sleeping on the glider the first few weeks because penny would want to nurse constantly. there was no point in going back to the master bedroom; i just collapsed onto the glider with a blanket and fell asleep. i still spend most of my mornings on that chair for early-morning feedings. thankfully, penny has been sleeping in longer stretches so i don’t need to get up as often but it’s so comfortable that it actually makes it hard to get up.

the one that we chose to get is the kersey upholstered swivel glider recliner from babies ‘r us. it retails for around $499. i love that it reclines which makes sleeping in it is easier.

below is the glider in penny’s nursery



6. halo bassinest

the above word is not a typo. we love the halo bassinest swivel sleeper. it’s next to my side of the bed so i can easily get to her. during the first four weeks, penny was exclusively sleeping in the bassinest at night. when she woke, i would scoop her up and take her to the nursery to do a diaper change and a feed. we didn’t have a monitor then because we wanted her to be close to us at that time.



the bassinest boasts a 360-degree swivel which comes in handy when you’re trying to gently place a baby inside it without waking them up.  i would turn it towards me when i was about to put penny down. i didn’t have to worry about squeezing in between my bed and the bassinest to access it.

it also has 6 different music options like ‘hush, little baby’ and rainforest noises. there is also a dim, bluish light that can be turned on so you can see your baby without switching on a bright lamp. in addition, there’s a vibrate mode than can help the baby go to sleep.

one thing that i couldn’t use was the collapsible side rail. one side of the bassinest is collapsible so you can reach in to soothe, or take out, your baby. unfortunately, we have a low bed frame and the bassinest was too high for me to be able to lean over to take penny out. i had to get out of bed. i didn’t mind really since i nursed in the nursery anyway.

7. baby bjorn

baby bjorn one

there are many baby carriers out there but we chose ‘baby bjorn one’ for its versatility. ‘baby bjorn one’ accommodates newborns-3 years and has four different carrying options. newborns are worn higher on the chest to not only make them feel safe and secure but also for easy viewing access for the parents. after the age of four months, babies should be worn lower on the chest. after five months or when your baby has a more developed neck, hips, and spine they can be worn facing outwards as well. starting from 12 months, or when your child has consistent control over their head, neck, and torso they can be worn on the back.

in the early weeks, there were days when we struggled with putting penny down for a nap and the only way she would sleep was either in our arms or in the baby bjorn one. the baby being strapped close to a warm chest lulls them to sleep (much like a swaddle). of course, it limits what you can do but at least the baby is finally sleeping and you’re hands-free! (you could’ve been stuck on the couch cradling a baby while nodding off… always a dangerous situation.)

dennis and i always make sure to pack the carrier when we’re traveling so it’s an option when penny is being fussy. recently, we drove up to massachusetts to attend my cousin’s high school graduation party. penny was overtired from being handed around to multiple people so when it finally came down to napping she would awaken a half hour later. after it occurring twice, we decided to put penny in the carrier so we wouldn’t keep missing out on the mingling and festivities. it took, maybe, five minutes for her to fall asleep once dennis put her in the carrier.

8. kindle/tablet/smartphone

using a combination of all three will really help in keeping you preoccupied when you’re up at odd hours of the day to feed the baby. during the first month or so, newborns generally feed every 1.5-2 hours so much of your days are spent confined to a glider, or the couch, unable to do much else.

i used the kindle more when i was exclusively pumping to pass the time since i was pumping every two hours in the beginning. when i resumed nursing, i started using my ipad to browse the internet and go on facebook because of the larger screen but it wasn’t as convenient as using my iphone. yes, the screen’s smaller on a smartphone but at least i can access and hold it with one hand. i’m also very skilled at texting with one hand so i’m able to keep up on my social life as well.

in addition, there are several apps (that i will mention below) that i consistently use so i always make sure to have my phone on me. during the first month when penny was either cluster feeding or feeding every 1.5-2 hours, i was bound to the glider or the couch. coincidentally, genie would be up at the same odd hours of the night as me since she had to tend to her newborn. we would spend this time texting back and forth sharing our triumphs and frustrations as well as links to articles that ranged from current events to harry potter.

9. baby tracker, white noise, & spotify apps

in a previous post, i had talked about ‘baby tracker’, an app that logs your baby’s feeding time/length, diaper changes, sleep time, milestones, vaccinations, etc. since i’m constantly accessing this app to record all of these things i make sure to have my phone with me wherever i go. when i like something, i reach the obsession stage and currently i’m consumed with this app. i like organizing data and seeing patterns, and this app allows me to gauge penny’s next meal so i know not to be in the middle of eating if she’s going to wake up for a feeding soon. being able to see when she last slept is crucial so i can make sure to put her down before she reaches the overtired stage. i make an effort to get the nap routine going before the 1.5 hour mark. it sounds crazy but it’s so easy to miss a baby’s tired cues and when you do, it goes downhill pretty quickly.

babies are used to hearing all kinds of environmental noises because they were exposed to it in the womb. one time when penny was only a few weeks old, yuri barked very close to her ear – i was livid – but penny continued snoozing on my shoulder without so much as a flinch since she had heard yuri barking for the past nine and a half months. that’s why sometimes white noise can be soothing to babies and actually help them go to sleep.

i have the white noise app on my phone and ipad. i keep the ipad in the nursery so the white noise is on whenever she is sleeping. to be honest, it’s a waste of an ipad to only be used for the white noise app so we are mulling over buying a white noise machine. now that penny is older and more sensitive to background noise, white noise also helps to mask other noises so that penny stays asleep. it brings a peace of mind knowing that you don’t have to whisper or tiptoe around the house (though we still do occasionally).

ah, spotify. we love accessing the myriad of playlists to expose penny to a variety of music. besides the white noise, we also play calm and soothing tunes from playlists such as ‘afternoon acoustics’ and ‘peaceful piano’ when trying to put penny to sleep. when she’s awake, we’ll play more upbeat music from playlists like ‘today’s top hits’ or ‘weekend buzz.’ there is a bose sound dock in penny’s room so we connect our phones to it via bluetooth whenever we are in there. to ensure penny won’t wake up when the music abruptly stops, i gradually lower the volume while putting her to sleep and then stop the music altogether when i’m just outside her door. for when she’s awake, we connect our phones to the sound bar that’s in front of the tv so music can course throughout the first floor. we try our best to not expose her to television and since many a day is spent with just me, it’s awfully quiet in our home; so to have her hear different sounds and experience all kinds of music is always a good thing.

10. samsung safeview baby monitor

the above picture is one of a slightly older model. i believe the features are all the same but some of the buttons on the front look different.

we got this monitor out of the hundreds that are out there because it got an ‘a’ in the baby bargains book and we’re very partial to samsung. but really, it does have a lot of wonderful features. the monitor has a built-in stand and a belt clip for convenience. there are also buttons to zoom in on the baby and move the camera up and down and side to side. night vision is excellent, and the out-of-range feature was helpful to me when i have to take yuri out because she’s pleading with her eyes and penny is sleeping. i grab the monitor and walk yuri as far as i can within range. thankfully, i only had to do this once. yuri was stubborn and refused to do her duty unless she went farther so i called my fil who was able to come and take her out while i tended to penny.

there’s also a two-way talk button so you can talk to the baby. dennis and i actually use this feature to communicate with one another if one is in bed and the other is tending to the baby. case in point: after a recent feeding, penny woke up, crying. surmising a soiled diaper, dennis went to go change her and found that she had had a blowout. panicking, he leaned into the camera and hissed, ‘mayday, mayday’ so i got up to assist him.

11. graco pack and play

we use this every single day. it is in our living room, and we placed a small basket of diapers, wipes, and disposable changing pads in the corner of the pack and play to also serve as a place to change penny when she’s downstairs. in addition, she does most of her tummy time in it and we also put the boppy lounger in there so she can sit up for independent play.

as she gets older, we will lower the mattress so it can serve as a playard. it’s super easy to assemble and disassemble for travel or outdoor purposes. say you’re at a cookout, you can place your (older) baby in the playard with a few toys so you can mingle and eat.

12. simple wishes bra

i know, i know, it’s a silly-looking contraption but it is very useful especially if you’re frequently pumping. i exclusively pumped the first few weeks because of severe nipple pain and damage. since i was pumping every two hours (even at night!), i was incredibly sleepy and had a lot of time to pass while pumping. initially, i would support both pumps with one arm and use the other to control the suction/speed. i found myself nodding off and milk spilling out of the flanges and thought there had to be a better way. dennis suggested the simple wishes bra and ordered one for me. i laughed it off because it looked comical, but i was a believer after the first try.

since it’s hands-free, i was able to read on my kindle and/or use my phone.  i haven’t used it since that first month though since i mostly breastfeed penny, even when i’m in public; but i’ll be able to use it at work when i return since i need to pump to keep up my supply.

13. dria nursing cover

i have the gray-and-white striped cover

i purchased this about two weeks ago from amazon. since i’m planning to go out more with penny, i wanted to find a nursing cover that wasn’t cumbersome nor had cheesy prints and patterns. i researched and came upon the dria cover. it looks like a regular top – a tunic – and the material is light and breathable. although pricey at $79.95, it’s totally worth it. not only is it a nursing cover, but you can use it as a car seat and stroller cover as well.

penny is used to taking naps in her nursery where it’s dark and has the white noise app on in the background. i’m trying to take her out more so she can get used to falling asleep anywhere. penny and i met up with genie and olivia last week to walk around the mall. although olivia fell asleep right away in the stroller, penny had difficulty because of all the stimulation. finally, i draped the dria cover over the stroller and she fell asleep within minutes. this method worked yesterday too when dennis and i went to the mall – it was instant! true, she didn’t sleep as long as she would have at home but she still got some shut-eye and we were able to focus our attention elsewhere.

14. support system

this, money cannot buy. i’m fortunate to have my in-laws live 15 minutes away. my mil is semi-retired and came over nearly every day with homemade korean food and side dishes for the first month. it was such a huge welcome since dennis and i barely had time to eat let alone prepare meals. she also helped with feeding while i rested – another bonus. my fil is retired and is mostly at home which is convenient because there are times that yuri needs to go out for a walk and i’m unable to take her. if i let him know, he leaves his home immediately and comes over to relieve me.

it’s difficult for my workaholic parents to visit since they’re preoccupied with their restaurants; which is why i was surprised and grateful when my mom stayed over for the weekend during penny’s first week. she brought loads of food from the restaurant as well as korean groceries. while i was busy tending to penny, she cooked up a storm, washed the dishes, and cleaned our home (even the bathrooms!) she also slept with penny in her room to do night feedings while i pumped.

my parents

my parents


my sister during this week’s visit


my sister’s visit when penny was 6 weeks.


my brother-in-law, dan, and his wife, crystal

recently, both of my parents came down for the day. again, they arrived laden with korean food and groceries. while penny slept, i was able to eat 비빔국수, or spicy cold noodles, one of my favorite dishes with my mom and dad. growing up, my relationship with my parents was complex and awkward.. i guess it’s the typical relationship many asian children have with their parents. as i grew older, i started connecting more with my mom. it helped that i would make an effort (someone has to start). now that i have a child of my own, i see how laborious and tiring it must’ve been to raise three while working full-time. my admiration and appreciation for my parents grew significantly that first week when i struggled with breastfeeding, sleep deprivation, and overall patience.

i’m also grateful for all of my friends that come to visit especially when there’s food involved! it can get mighty lonely being homebound with a newborn and a dog – both creatures that are unable to talk back to you – and having adult conversations really cheers me up. plus, i don’t feel as isolated and out of the loop.

earlier, i talked about how my friend, genie, and i regularly keep in contact about our day particularly how our girls are doing. having a close friend go through this journey with me has been beneficial. olivia is about 6 weeks older than penny so genie is able to tell me what to expect. furthermore, being able to decompress with another first-time mom is important for our sanity… and knowing that we aren’t alone.

the purpose of this blog is not only to document my experiences as a first-time mom so that penny and i can look back and cherish these memories, but also to hopefully be of some assistance to future and new parents. when you’re up at 3am with sore nipples and an inconsolable baby, it helps to know that you’re not a failure. this doesn’t just happen to you. all the praise and encouragement i’ve received from family and friends during these past ten weeks have bolstered my own self-esteem and contributed greatly in persevering through my troubles. if you’re feeling overwhelmed, please confide in your significant other, a family member, or a friend. with all the stress and work that is involved in raising a baby, you shouldn’t feel like you’re alone.

as always, thanks for reading.